Good morning single ladies & gentlemen...... It was heavy on my heart this morning after meditation last night to encourage you to effect change. Change begins with self, not trying to fix others. So while we say things like there are no good men/women out there, or all the good men/wpmen are taken you actually speak into existence your thoughts. The truth is your experience with men/women is what you have made it. Ladies, A man can't do to you, what you don't allow. (not speaking of things forced) So stop allowing things in your life that are less then the standard you claim to desire.
Stop putting up with crap, drama, lies, casual sex encounters and blaming HIM/HER... Blame yourself for allowing, then ask yourself why you do. When you get to the ROOT of the issue you can then change it.
Ladies in particular, how different would the world be if women possesed the true virtue God meant for us to possess? Men would be forced to adhere to the standard now wouldn't they? While men are very responsible for their own transgressions, as women we claim to want equality & power... and that starts with taking your fare share of the responsibility.
I got a call from an ex last night....... someone I had a serious soultie with at one time and I new it was a test. His treatement of me long ago was digusting to say the least, but my allowance of it was worse. What made me feel so wonderful was the ease with which I was able to dismiss his attempt at lurring me into his presence with lies and seduction and empty promises.
It was easy because the last few years have been a growth process and a soul searching journey of self. I place no blame on anyone for my life or it's outcome.
I said this a week ago on facebook and spoke to a couple of friends as well about the fact that if you desire to get on the right track and abstain from sex especially...... STOP DATING. Stop putting yourself in a position for failure. Being alone does not have to equal lonely and the solitude will benefit you in ways you will have to experience to truly understand...... REVELATION will come in that solitude. You will find yourself, you will find that God is waiting for you. He will reveal the roots, the issues, He will cleanse and deliver you family. He will make you fit for the mate you desire.
Stop allowing garbage in..... stop dealing with people who have bad intentions... and learn to discern the difference. Ladies stop just listening to words and pay attention to actions!
If they dont' line up with each other then he is not being real. Stop falling for the okey dokey, settling for mediocre conversation and opening your legs to some dude because he told you that you were beautiful and baught you dinner.. hell if he even did that before you spread them like butter on toast for him to take what God gave you for your husband. Breath that in and accept the responsibility for your actions, then cry and get the REVELATION that you deserve better and are worth more.
There is no temptation new to man, so we all face them... but we can avoid them.
Jesus is an amazing listner... speak to Him... ask Him to help you change those things that are not fitting of a man or woman of God. Ask Him to help you develop HIS character. The peace you will gain is worth more then all the treasures of this world.
This is the second year of my "chronicled" journey of celibacy and sexual abstainence..... it has gotten easier and I am in an awesome place right now. I desire to motivate you to that same place. I have stumbled along the way so I don't want you to think I'm perfect, but I have gotten up, asked for forgiveness, RECEIVED IT! and moved on with even more determination. The growth has been tremendous and I feel worthy of the title "woman of God". I also now feel worthy of a true "man of God" who demonstrates character & attributes of virtue and righteousness. I now don't feel like a hypocrite. The tests and trials are hardly over, but I truly feel better prepared to face them at this point. Put on your armor family! Step back from the very thing that is causing you to stumble so you can put on your armor. You can't protect yourself when you just keep taking hits and getting wounded without healing before you go out again. So my word for today is stop dating, step back, evalutate, enjoy the solitude & seek God. Read your bible, study, put on your armor, guard your heart. When your fully prepared, healed, delivered and whole you can go back out and start dating again... guaranteed you will attract different people into your life and find the right person for you.
Love you Family!
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Fallen Angel my last post for 2012
True repenetence dictates that you have a change of mind, heart, attitude & direction which I can say I have truly repented of sexual sin and been delivered from unnatural desires, overactive imagination & soul ties that stem from sin & past experiences. Can you repent more then once? Yep I have... I've managed to do well for several months or a couple of years then fall. I can't say it won't happen again either. I can only say that I am doing my best.
Sex is meant for marriage and your inability to control your sexual urges is not due to hormones but your spiritual walk, lack of deliverence and failure to renew your mind daily. Grow up in Christ! It makes all the difference in the world.
Sex should never control you, you should control it. We all need it & want it, but what should superced your desire to satisfy your flesh is your desire to please God.
God understands what you want and need, He's just smarter then you are and knows your not ready for it.
Stop asking God to take away your urges and desires & ask Him to help you manage them.
Stop wanting to get married because you want sex... marriage is not just for sex. Your lack of self control will have you married to the wrong person and distruction can soon follow.
While single and waiting to meet that right person, prepare for marriage... allow God to prepare you. Allow God to work out of you those things that are not of HIM and work IN the things that are. His yoke is light.
Some of us wouldn't know a good spouse if we saw one and really need to step back and take a good look at past decisions and those things clouding our vision so we can see who God has intended for us.
In this year ahead really focus on your relationship with God and stop focusing on whether or not this person or that person is your husband/wife. Stop focusing on how horny you are. Really you shouldn't be thinking about sex all the time and if you are, you have way to much time on your hands and have failed to take on the spiritual nature of your father......
Walking in the spirit and not the flesh is key and bringing our bodies under subjetion to the Holy Spirit is imperative.
You can do this.
Ladies and gentlemen respect yourselves & each other and lead each other into righteousness not temptation.
Stop making excuses for your behavior.
Seek deliverence if you know you have an issue, God is faithful to deliver.
Men you are the head, take that position with integrity and stop using your lower nature as an excuse. If a woman tries to seduce you, be willing to say no. Be willing to restore her & keep her when she can't keep herself. Be willing to walk in integrity and walk away from a woman who is not your wife. Be willing to say no and recognize you are not to take what is not rightfully yours and will not be rightfully yours until you have married her.
Men be respectful and kind even to those women you perceive don't deserve it because everyone deserves to be treated with dignity.
What I pray for everyone reading is that in the new year you will walk in healing, wholenss & deliverence in the mighty name of Jesus. That you will consider God in all that you do. That you will have eyes to see, and ears to hear what God is saying to you in 2012. That integrity, character & virtue will be your garments in 2012... no more compromising yourself and others.
Be blessed family and if you fell this year, God is faithful to forgive. Get up dust it off and keep it pushin. You will be better in 2012.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
ARE WOMEN REALLY THAT PICKY?
Are women really that picky? We think we know the truth but the mark is being missed big time here..... what many are not looking at is the new dynamic in churches.... women can be picky yes... however the truth is most Godly women are not picky... we just have little to pick from. The churches are either filled with women... like my church (dare to say 80% women) or they are filled with men who know that they can go to church to find women (easy desperate women) i.e. some mega churches I know to be total meat markets... the standard has long since been lowered due to a lack of good teaching in singles ministries which reinforce with practical application the need to be pure in relationships, how to foster relationships and those who can actually teach and demonstrate how is should be done. While the whores in the pulpit yell at us about keeping our legs closed they are the very perpetrators of the secret sin we all fall into.... and above all what most people find disgusting is hypocricy.
Men have for a while been losing their foothold as head due to the change in family dynamic, womens rights movements etc.... which have put women in positions of power financially and emotionally of their families (not as God ordained it) Men hold the ultimate responsibility at the end of the day as the head..... leadership...... remember decay begins from the top down.....
Women need to re learn what their position is and embrace it, while men need to re-learn what theirs is and hold it without ego but love as Christ loves the church. Men need to return to the church in greater numbers so they can be filled with the Holy Spirit of God. Women are crying our for this. I for one will just continue to hold my possition in intercession praying for an outpouring on our men so that they will return to their rightful positions and bring balance back to us women. The bible does say that we will become lovers of self and men will refuse to marry. Men refuse to marry because they no longer have to work, cuz women give it away.
I am single, far from superficial.... have never looked for money, always looked for Godly values in men and that seems to be hard to find in men these days...... this is a core issue with both men and women these days... values have changed a lot, even among the so called people of God. I either run into the man who seems to be the hearer and not the doer, or he is so anal spiritually, yes I said it that you can't have a conversation.... We need help Lord!
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Saturday, June 18, 2011
What's the Harm?
Greater harm is done to the faith, because it is a betrayal and more hurtful when ever the offense comes from "family" agreed?. Nothing hurts more then when your family hurts you. This is why people in the church are so wounded..... via pastors, fellow parishioners.... Christ bled, so we wouldn't have to... yet we wound one another constantly. We are to sharpen one another, not stab. So lets work on our love walk & our integrity as saints.
In this walk of celibacy, which hasn't been easy, I have been respected more by men who were NOT Christians as they walked away in honesty saying that the thought of abstaining from sex was not one they will consider, versus some men of God, who scoffed at me, did not take it serious, were not on the same page, and actually challenged me. Some have even gone as far as to be physically aggressive, knowing that the pressure of physical stimulation will often cause a person to break. I have been both angered and saddened by this. I know women do it to men as well so there is no partiality here. But we have to do better family.
Now I won't pretend I'm innocent.... I have seduced my fair share of men in the past... but certainly not a man who actually claimed to have wanted to abstain. I don't believe I have ever dated a man that wanted to. Not an excuse in anyway because theoretically I am guilty by my very participation and by provocation even if the person was willing or not. Sin is sin. I'm just saying I don't ever want to be guilty of having been the cause of someone else to sin.
Certainly this is not exclusive to men as I have heard many a story from men who claim that they desired to abstain and were disappointed in the women they dated who did the same.... seduced them into sex. I will say however I believe the motive for women is a little different... not related to an insatiable sex drive but a desire for attention. I have heard it time and time again, how women think that a man who does not touch them physically is not attracted to them. "Oh he must be gay" or "Is there something wrong with me". You see it's so rare to find a man with those types of values (sad but true) that we don't appreciate it when we see it. Then of course there is the low self esteem factor of the woman who must find her emotional gratification in the attention from a man. So sad.
Such a struggle.
As men and women of God, the last thing we should be doing is causing one another to stumble, no matter what the area.... so lets try to at the very least let those who desire to have standards have them without the pressure of coercion. Those who don't desire to hold the Godly standard should have no trouble what so ever finding others who are on the same page as they are....... so at least keep a clean conscious when it comes to having affected the life of another brother or sister with your lack of discipline. Ouch this stings a little.... a tough pill to swallow... but you know I speak truth. I have never been one to make excuses or condone mess but i'm just sayin, it's one thing to do your own dirt, just don't drag others into it with you.....I own what belongs to me and try to be better..... so I desire to help others do the same. If this has been you...... ask God to forgive you for those you may have caused to stumble no matter what the area.... God is merciful and He loves us unconditionally but He wants us to be better to each other.
Now I won't pretend I'm innocent.... I have seduced my fair share of men in the past... but certainly not a man who actually claimed to have wanted to abstain. I don't believe I have ever dated a man that wanted to. Not an excuse in anyway because theoretically I am guilty by my very participation and by provocation even if the person was willing or not. Sin is sin. I'm just saying I don't ever want to be guilty of having been the cause of someone else to sin.
Certainly this is not exclusive to men as I have heard many a story from men who claim that they desired to abstain and were disappointed in the women they dated who did the same.... seduced them into sex. I will say however I believe the motive for women is a little different... not related to an insatiable sex drive but a desire for attention. I have heard it time and time again, how women think that a man who does not touch them physically is not attracted to them. "Oh he must be gay" or "Is there something wrong with me". You see it's so rare to find a man with those types of values (sad but true) that we don't appreciate it when we see it. Then of course there is the low self esteem factor of the woman who must find her emotional gratification in the attention from a man. So sad.
Such a struggle.
As men and women of God, the last thing we should be doing is causing one another to stumble, no matter what the area.... so lets try to at the very least let those who desire to have standards have them without the pressure of coercion. Those who don't desire to hold the Godly standard should have no trouble what so ever finding others who are on the same page as they are....... so at least keep a clean conscious when it comes to having affected the life of another brother or sister with your lack of discipline. Ouch this stings a little.... a tough pill to swallow... but you know I speak truth. I have never been one to make excuses or condone mess but i'm just sayin, it's one thing to do your own dirt, just don't drag others into it with you.....I own what belongs to me and try to be better..... so I desire to help others do the same. If this has been you...... ask God to forgive you for those you may have caused to stumble no matter what the area.... God is merciful and He loves us unconditionally but He wants us to be better to each other.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
What Happens When We Fall?
I know it's been a while since I posted...not much is going on in my world so I haven't been terribly inspired lately. In some ways that is a good thing, the quiet has been nice for a change. It's funny how you can get used to chaos and almost not know what to do with yourself when your world isn't full of it.
I consider the quiet a serious indication that deliverance is mine. I don't quite look at sex the same way and don't think about it much any more. The longer I go without it the easier it gets.... until of course hormones kick in... but even then....... I don't focus on the need to satisfy the desire as much as I do now manage it via exercise and other things to occupy my thoughts. That is the reason I suggested that you not ask God to take away the desire, but show you how to "MANAGE" it.
The key to your deliverance is the REVELATION. This happens at different times for everyone. You can hear the same scripture over and over again and not get the true revelation of how it applies to your life and how much it can change your life. The scripture for example "your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit. Heard it often....read it often.. but I didn't really GET (live it) it until about 2 years ago.
What happens when we FALL.? When we fall into sin...... it causes a separation between us and God. The Holy Spirit dwells within us and so when we commit such a sin as sex... it vexes the Holy Spirit and causes Him to leave our presence. God is Holy and will not be in the midst of sin, and since the HOLY SPIRIT is the Spirit of God... it stands to reason... he's gonna be out of there while your doing your thing. Thing is He kinda stays away for a while until He thinks it's safe to come back. I know it sounds funny the way I'm describing it.... but this is an analogy that I think is super simple to understand.
It's not until you sense, feel & understand the separation from God that we are prompted to repent.
Why must it take us so long though?
What I do know is that when we fall God is waiting for us to recover with open arms. He desires healing wholeness and holiness.
When we fall down, we get back up again.. dust it off and keep on moving. You can do this family. If I can do it I know you can
I consider the quiet a serious indication that deliverance is mine. I don't quite look at sex the same way and don't think about it much any more. The longer I go without it the easier it gets.... until of course hormones kick in... but even then....... I don't focus on the need to satisfy the desire as much as I do now manage it via exercise and other things to occupy my thoughts. That is the reason I suggested that you not ask God to take away the desire, but show you how to "MANAGE" it.
The key to your deliverance is the REVELATION. This happens at different times for everyone. You can hear the same scripture over and over again and not get the true revelation of how it applies to your life and how much it can change your life. The scripture for example "your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit. Heard it often....read it often.. but I didn't really GET (live it) it until about 2 years ago.
What happens when we FALL.? When we fall into sin...... it causes a separation between us and God. The Holy Spirit dwells within us and so when we commit such a sin as sex... it vexes the Holy Spirit and causes Him to leave our presence. God is Holy and will not be in the midst of sin, and since the HOLY SPIRIT is the Spirit of God... it stands to reason... he's gonna be out of there while your doing your thing. Thing is He kinda stays away for a while until He thinks it's safe to come back. I know it sounds funny the way I'm describing it.... but this is an analogy that I think is super simple to understand.
It's not until you sense, feel & understand the separation from God that we are prompted to repent.
Why must it take us so long though?
What I do know is that when we fall God is waiting for us to recover with open arms. He desires healing wholeness and holiness.
When we fall down, we get back up again.. dust it off and keep on moving. You can do this family. If I can do it I know you can
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Just Keepin It Real
If I'm keepin it real, it hasn't been an easy journey.... not even a desired one for me accept that I desire to please God more then I desire to please my flesh. Eventually I hope to be married and have sex as much as possible LOL.... I am proud of myself to small degree for my ability to abstain, since I could have sex at any given time if i so desire.... but thank God for self control.
I have been tempted on many occasions, I'm even tempted now, and have tempted someone else.... but eventually I come to my senses. ****whew! thank God!
Again it is not for any other reason but to respect the spirit of God that dwells within and to keep the commands of God. Much easier said then done.. but i'm fighting the good fight.
The schmeckle is calling often and I have to remind myself that the current momentary satisfaction will never lead to the desired end if i give in to the temptation.
So are you tempted right now?
I have been tempted on many occasions, I'm even tempted now, and have tempted someone else.... but eventually I come to my senses. ****whew! thank God!
Again it is not for any other reason but to respect the spirit of God that dwells within and to keep the commands of God. Much easier said then done.. but i'm fighting the good fight.
The schmeckle is calling often and I have to remind myself that the current momentary satisfaction will never lead to the desired end if i give in to the temptation.
So are you tempted right now?
Friday, April 22, 2011
Playing with Fire
You know the saying "if you play with fire you will eventually get burned"? Couldn't be truer. Are you playing with fire in your attempt to abstain from sex? I know I have... and recently. I don't beat myself up about it, but I certainly kick myself after thanking God for my narrow escape on many occasions. The most recent occasion being when I allowed an ex boyfriend to come over my house "to visit"... (we remained friendly after our break up) It's funny how we remain naive to others intentions... I didn't think for a moment he came to "get some", I thought he came to say hello, talk a little, hang out etc..... no biggie. Then it happened, the conversation turned to old times... how he missed me, how I might have been the one that got away because he was too immature to see my value. then the hug goodbye.... You know that one? The one that brings back memories, fond ones, chemistry, old feelings, the ones you think are long gone (for me they really are). But I guess when you have been deprived of affection, contact, romance you get that feeling rising up in you, your body temperature rises, the temptation increases and you in that moment have a choice to make, will you give in or will you resist.
He tried to kiss me... then I knew it was gonna be trouble... Kisses for me are never just kisses, unless I give you one on the cheek. He made his attempt and I felt like Holyfield in a boxing match.... I bobbed and weaved trying to duck it.... He got the message.
I was tempted... wanted to kiss him to be honest, but not because I love him.... I love to kiss and it's something I miss. I briefly thought I might do it, thinking of course it can be just a kiss... a little make out session, but I knew HIM and I know ME. So in that brief moment, I made the choice to avoid the potential danger.
It's certainly not always easy, but it is what we should do. If we take those brief moments to think and reject the temptation, we can avoid some sticky situations that we often regret.
So if you don't wanna get burned, it's best you don't play with fire.
He tried to kiss me... then I knew it was gonna be trouble... Kisses for me are never just kisses, unless I give you one on the cheek. He made his attempt and I felt like Holyfield in a boxing match.... I bobbed and weaved trying to duck it.... He got the message.
I was tempted... wanted to kiss him to be honest, but not because I love him.... I love to kiss and it's something I miss. I briefly thought I might do it, thinking of course it can be just a kiss... a little make out session, but I knew HIM and I know ME. So in that brief moment, I made the choice to avoid the potential danger.
It's certainly not always easy, but it is what we should do. If we take those brief moments to think and reject the temptation, we can avoid some sticky situations that we often regret.
So if you don't wanna get burned, it's best you don't play with fire.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Sex Isn't Everything
Over time as I submitted more to Christ and not my flesh, I began to ask myself why is sex such a big deal to everyone including me. I mean I know it feels good, but why must it control us? Sex is everywhere we go, on the radio, tv, movies, and no one can seem to see the scheme of the enemy in all this.
Funny my Pastor even said today that most people don't come to Christ or ever truly walk out their purpose because of sex.
This caused me to reflect on how much time I have wasted and how true that statement was. I spent a great many years battling my flesh, mind and the desire for sexual gratification as a single.... of course what I really wanted was marriage so I wouldn't be in sin, however I was willing to compromise and give into the temptation for the companionship and momentary gratification. All to the detriment of self, perpetuation of damage to self, self esteem & self worth
In all things we have a choice and I made the choice to satisfy my desire and not fulfill my purpose. I had to take a moment to ask God to forgive me for all the men I put before my purpose.
What I can say that this walk of abstinence has done for me, is given me vision, clear without obstruction. My thoughts are clear I have better focus and direction, a bigger sense of purpose, a stronger desire to fullfill it and a stronger presence of the Holy Spirit within because my temple is clean, cuz keep in mind no one wants to live in a dirty house. 1 Cor 6:18 speaks of the sin of sex outside of marriage being different then any other sin because it is done to self, your own body. God in His infinite wisdom and knowledge knows how much damage sex with multiple partners can cause, mentally, emotionally, physically, even unto death..... or even unto generations to come... (children out of wedlock) damage damage damage, diseases.... damage damage damage...... Thing is the devil knows to....
We have the ability to set the standard, exhibit self control and live our lives whole and happy, sex should just be the icing on the cake, not the whole cake. So today I encourage you to make the right choices, and do just that, be happy and whole and the rest will follow. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CqkeJgFdANc
I was just thinking is all.
Funny my Pastor even said today that most people don't come to Christ or ever truly walk out their purpose because of sex.
This caused me to reflect on how much time I have wasted and how true that statement was. I spent a great many years battling my flesh, mind and the desire for sexual gratification as a single.... of course what I really wanted was marriage so I wouldn't be in sin, however I was willing to compromise and give into the temptation for the companionship and momentary gratification. All to the detriment of self, perpetuation of damage to self, self esteem & self worth
In all things we have a choice and I made the choice to satisfy my desire and not fulfill my purpose. I had to take a moment to ask God to forgive me for all the men I put before my purpose.
What I can say that this walk of abstinence has done for me, is given me vision, clear without obstruction. My thoughts are clear I have better focus and direction, a bigger sense of purpose, a stronger desire to fullfill it and a stronger presence of the Holy Spirit within because my temple is clean, cuz keep in mind no one wants to live in a dirty house. 1 Cor 6:18 speaks of the sin of sex outside of marriage being different then any other sin because it is done to self, your own body. God in His infinite wisdom and knowledge knows how much damage sex with multiple partners can cause, mentally, emotionally, physically, even unto death..... or even unto generations to come... (children out of wedlock) damage damage damage, diseases.... damage damage damage...... Thing is the devil knows to....
We have the ability to set the standard, exhibit self control and live our lives whole and happy, sex should just be the icing on the cake, not the whole cake. So today I encourage you to make the right choices, and do just that, be happy and whole and the rest will follow. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CqkeJgFdANc
I was just thinking is all.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Look who's watching me.
Hey friends,
Thought I would continue on today. I had a blast last night going through the profiles of some men who sent me greetings and expressed interest. I will share with you a few of them in slight detail. There is quantity but the quality is definitely and issue. I was thinking maybe I could make some money by being a consultant for some of these guys... cuz they need help.
Examples:
#2 Dude what were you thinking? Not a good idea to have a profile picture of you kneeling next to a grave site? WTH?
#3 It would have been a good idea for you to take your apron off before you took the picture, although it is nice to see you have a job.
#4 You looked kind of cute in your first picture, but then the picture of you sitting on the bus stop killed it for me. You should keep that a secret until you get to know a girl. If she likes you enough she will give you a ride or two........ first off? Nope she's gonna say no.
#5 Wow a half naked old man. Not a good look anytime let alone for a profile picture. It says he's 49 but he looks 69, wrinkled beyond belief. He had a very touching story about how his first wife died and he seeks another life mate. However he drinks, smokes and only goes to church twice a month. My response? You had me at hello! LOL! NOT!
#6 Pay dirt!!!! Hunka Hunka burnin love. Tall, handsome... great profile pic, great profile intro.. good job, goes to church, no smoking... pics of his friends who also look nice.... biggest selling point he still does the running man and wants a dance partner. Im in! LOL
Well one out of 7 isn't bad I guess. This is all in fun, so don't think I'm being hyper critical, just observations.
Would love it if you shared some of your stories with me if you have ever done online dating.
Smooches!!!
Thought I would continue on today. I had a blast last night going through the profiles of some men who sent me greetings and expressed interest. I will share with you a few of them in slight detail. There is quantity but the quality is definitely and issue. I was thinking maybe I could make some money by being a consultant for some of these guys... cuz they need help.
Examples:
#2 Dude what were you thinking? Not a good idea to have a profile picture of you kneeling next to a grave site? WTH?
#3 It would have been a good idea for you to take your apron off before you took the picture, although it is nice to see you have a job.
#4 You looked kind of cute in your first picture, but then the picture of you sitting on the bus stop killed it for me. You should keep that a secret until you get to know a girl. If she likes you enough she will give you a ride or two........ first off? Nope she's gonna say no.
#5 Wow a half naked old man. Not a good look anytime let alone for a profile picture. It says he's 49 but he looks 69, wrinkled beyond belief. He had a very touching story about how his first wife died and he seeks another life mate. However he drinks, smokes and only goes to church twice a month. My response? You had me at hello! LOL! NOT!
#6 Pay dirt!!!! Hunka Hunka burnin love. Tall, handsome... great profile pic, great profile intro.. good job, goes to church, no smoking... pics of his friends who also look nice.... biggest selling point he still does the running man and wants a dance partner. Im in! LOL
Well one out of 7 isn't bad I guess. This is all in fun, so don't think I'm being hyper critical, just observations.
Would love it if you shared some of your stories with me if you have ever done online dating.
Smooches!!!
Monday, March 28, 2011
Come on a date with me.
I decided to join a dating site... the new dating site "Christian Mingle". I had kind of set dating to the side and really still have.. but I thought it would be fun to really get this blog kicking by actually having some dating experiences to share with you. Going out takes this abstinence walk to a whole other level.
What really made me decide to do this were some of the dating profiles I saw on the site. Now it's a "Christian" Site, but clearly not all who are on it have a "Christian mindset.
Some have been funny, disappointing, and down right shocking.
Today I will share with you profile #WTH???? Obviously the details will only be of a superficial nature so as not to possibly give any identity away, i won't even share race. This young man, decent looking, tall seems to dress decent, begins his profile with I just wanna have fun??? I thought wow if you only wanna have fun why this site. He is in his 40's so this was even more disappointing as I would have expected to hear that from a 25 year old. So let us dig deeper into some other details. His church attendance???? Only on holidays... LOL what a surprise. He smokes, drinks & has several children. Overall rating? I don't know why the women aren't lined up around the block for you dude! LMBO!
I will continue to share with you some of the experiences I have on this site. Those that contact me with any interesting things to say will be included.
Oh and I've discovered there are a lot of seemingly great single Christian men out there... but they are all under 5'10.
I hope you enjoy!
What really made me decide to do this were some of the dating profiles I saw on the site. Now it's a "Christian" Site, but clearly not all who are on it have a "Christian mindset.
Some have been funny, disappointing, and down right shocking.
Today I will share with you profile #WTH???? Obviously the details will only be of a superficial nature so as not to possibly give any identity away, i won't even share race. This young man, decent looking, tall seems to dress decent, begins his profile with I just wanna have fun??? I thought wow if you only wanna have fun why this site. He is in his 40's so this was even more disappointing as I would have expected to hear that from a 25 year old. So let us dig deeper into some other details. His church attendance???? Only on holidays... LOL what a surprise. He smokes, drinks & has several children. Overall rating? I don't know why the women aren't lined up around the block for you dude! LMBO!
I will continue to share with you some of the experiences I have on this site. Those that contact me with any interesting things to say will be included.
Oh and I've discovered there are a lot of seemingly great single Christian men out there... but they are all under 5'10.
I hope you enjoy!
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Are You a Temptrest in Sheeps Clothing?
It occurred to me today, how many of us, set ourselves up for failure in our attempt to remain pure or even just being a decent woman. For many who have not overcome the carnal mindset yet, a failure to learn how to attract a man outside of enticing him sexually is common. When you have been used to attention from men for all the wrong reasons you don't understand what it feels like to get it for all the right reasons. Instead of displaying the fruit of the spirit, you display your melons or your cookies. Many try to abstain, but in their efforts to remain attractive to or entice the opposite sex, things are done that compromise not only your walk but your credibility.
Let me explain, if you really want a man that wants you for you and not what's between your legs, then you can't show him what's between your legs. There is an ever increasing practice of sending photos via cell phones of ones private parts. Is this innocent? Women do it to entice men, men do it to entice women. The proverbial "show me what your working with" shot.
Some think it's no big deal, they aren't having sex but they feel the need to tease and entice to prove sexual desirability. What inevitably happens is you will get caught up during a weak moment and yield to the temptation eventually, I know cuz it has almost happened to me.
I have shared before how many times I have had men send me random shots of their junk, unsolicited I might add. Many may find it amusing, and return the favor by showing your goodies... bad idea.
If you have made the declaration that you desire to abstain and then send a pic of your goodies, trust and believe that man will loose all respect for you. He then will be in perpetual pursuit of what you have shown him and once he gets it he will be done with you. Oh and please don't act like a Christian man or woman doesn't do these things cuz they do. Many fail to lay aside worldly temptations and mindsets. Many suffer from sexual addiction etc...
Renew your mind and learn how to attract a man without seducing him sexually and if a man sends you those types of pictures on your phone, don't keep them, delete them immediately. The images will burn into your memory and cause you to meditate on it. And we all know what you meditate on, will eventually be acted upon.
If I receive pics like that, I delete them immediately.... Lord knows I don't need a big ol sausage staring me in the face so I can lust over it. We don't need to add to an already difficult task.
Just food for thought.
Let me explain, if you really want a man that wants you for you and not what's between your legs, then you can't show him what's between your legs. There is an ever increasing practice of sending photos via cell phones of ones private parts. Is this innocent? Women do it to entice men, men do it to entice women. The proverbial "show me what your working with" shot.
Some think it's no big deal, they aren't having sex but they feel the need to tease and entice to prove sexual desirability. What inevitably happens is you will get caught up during a weak moment and yield to the temptation eventually, I know cuz it has almost happened to me.
I have shared before how many times I have had men send me random shots of their junk, unsolicited I might add. Many may find it amusing, and return the favor by showing your goodies... bad idea.
If you have made the declaration that you desire to abstain and then send a pic of your goodies, trust and believe that man will loose all respect for you. He then will be in perpetual pursuit of what you have shown him and once he gets it he will be done with you. Oh and please don't act like a Christian man or woman doesn't do these things cuz they do. Many fail to lay aside worldly temptations and mindsets. Many suffer from sexual addiction etc...
Renew your mind and learn how to attract a man without seducing him sexually and if a man sends you those types of pictures on your phone, don't keep them, delete them immediately. The images will burn into your memory and cause you to meditate on it. And we all know what you meditate on, will eventually be acted upon.
If I receive pics like that, I delete them immediately.... Lord knows I don't need a big ol sausage staring me in the face so I can lust over it. We don't need to add to an already difficult task.
Just food for thought.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Sin & Anxiety
Keeping this chronicle has been kind of like keeping a diet diary..... and really writing down what you ate when no one but you knows. Do you tell the truth or do you lie or omit? What you write down depends on who's gonna see it and your level of integrity.....at the end of the day, you only cheat yourself right?
There really is nothing going on in my world as it pertains to sex..... again I have offers from a couple of men who find me attractive, but they want nothing more then to have sex so what's the point. People don't seem to understand when I say I have had enough sex to last me a lifetime so what I desire is love and most of all obedience to God. Some people understand but most men act like they don't. What's not to understand though???? To quote my girl Debra, no ringy no dingy.... LOL
I wanted to touch a little on how sin creates in us an anxiety. As Christians when we are out of obedience, being that we are connected to God via our spirits, unresolved sin creates conflict within us ( what some call "vexing". )
Obedience to God and His commandments brings peace to your soul, however disobedience brings about conflict. This conflict manifests it's self in anxiety..... you find yourself feeling frustrated, anxious, angry, full of rage, not at peace. Does this sound familiar to anyone? If it does, ask yourself what areas of your life you may be out of obedience.
God never said you wouldn't go through trials in your life which can indeed create stress..... however God promises to give you peace, rest, restoration. If your not able to reach a peaceful place, it's likely you are out of obedience in some area of your life, including not reading the word of God which is healing to our bones.
I find I am at the most peace even in a storm when I am in obedience.... knowing I am not doing anything to separate me from God. Mind you He never leaves us, but sin creates a gap between us and God, because often as Adam & Eve did in the garden.... we HIDE ourselves from God out of shame, conviction, guilt, condemnation......
Ok Ok I'll stop preaching...... but I just want folks to be at peace, just my two cents.....
Smooches!!!
There really is nothing going on in my world as it pertains to sex..... again I have offers from a couple of men who find me attractive, but they want nothing more then to have sex so what's the point. People don't seem to understand when I say I have had enough sex to last me a lifetime so what I desire is love and most of all obedience to God. Some people understand but most men act like they don't. What's not to understand though???? To quote my girl Debra, no ringy no dingy.... LOL
I wanted to touch a little on how sin creates in us an anxiety. As Christians when we are out of obedience, being that we are connected to God via our spirits, unresolved sin creates conflict within us ( what some call "vexing". )
Obedience to God and His commandments brings peace to your soul, however disobedience brings about conflict. This conflict manifests it's self in anxiety..... you find yourself feeling frustrated, anxious, angry, full of rage, not at peace. Does this sound familiar to anyone? If it does, ask yourself what areas of your life you may be out of obedience.
God never said you wouldn't go through trials in your life which can indeed create stress..... however God promises to give you peace, rest, restoration. If your not able to reach a peaceful place, it's likely you are out of obedience in some area of your life, including not reading the word of God which is healing to our bones.
I find I am at the most peace even in a storm when I am in obedience.... knowing I am not doing anything to separate me from God. Mind you He never leaves us, but sin creates a gap between us and God, because often as Adam & Eve did in the garden.... we HIDE ourselves from God out of shame, conviction, guilt, condemnation......
Ok Ok I'll stop preaching...... but I just want folks to be at peace, just my two cents.....
Smooches!!!
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Birthday Girl
Well it's my birthday again... yep one every year! This makes 41 years strong and I thank God for every year good and bad.
It's been a while since I've posted and for good reason. I've been taking many moments to reflect and be quiet these days as I have felt the attack of the enemy from every direction in the last few weeks, several months actually but particularly the last few weeks. Yes in the area of sexual desires since that is what this blog is about mainly but in so many other areas as well.
As for my abstinence I have been struggling quite a bit... definitely a season of high desire. Not for any particular reason that I can see other then hormones...except that I also perceive an attack of the enemy on my mind. Yes I said it.... for those of you who understand that we wrestle not against flesh and blood but against spiritual principalities in high places (Ephesians 6:12) you know what I mean. I can tell when sexual thoughts come from ME versus the enemy. I have had quite a few men "hit me up".... wanting to entice me. A couple with the offer of "just oral sex" as I'm sure quite a few of you have gotten, you know that offer that most often leads to way more? I almost gave into one offer... considered it for far too long and actually responded with consideration???? WTH???? I had to shake it off. What was I thinking..... I know what I was thinking... I was thinking a nice orgasm would be great right about now. Boy it took a minute to shake that one off and I actually felt super guilty for even considering it. What kind of example would that be???
Since the purpose of this blog is to encourage people to abstain from sex or overcome sexual bondage it stands to reason I have an enemy who desires to take me out of play. Dramatic? Not really, it's a reality when you understand the spirit realm and not just the realm of the flesh. See folks will believe in all that psychic crap but won't believe in the Biblical truths about the spirit realm.
The other area of attack in my life has been on the health of myself and family members seemingly all at once. Last year in December I wound up in the hospital with symptoms of heart issues... I almost blew my top. Unfortunately what comes with the territory of diabetes is heart disease.... a wake up call for me to take better care of myself. Next My brother is diagnosed with thyroid cancer, my sister-in-law is in need of surgery and I again just this week wind up in the hospital again, this time faced with possible surgery for ovarian cysts that caused so much pain I couldn't walk. BUT GOD!!!! Oh and the morphine drip was amaZing! LOL
As my boy Broderick said..... they turned me into a junky.... now they tryin to send me to rehab & I said NO NO NO.... LOL
Anywho, those things on top of several deaths even multiple deaths in single families over the last few months in our church has just been a heavy burden spiritually. Your prayers are much appreciated.
I know there are others dealing with far more & I get the burden of intercession quite frequently... but that on top of my own stuff can just be heavy.
I was feeling a little down today because yet another birthday is upon me and it seems as though I am not where I had hoped to be or want to be in many areas of my life. There is never anyone to blame but self in these situations as I am in control of my life and choices... but none the less it has caused me to pause and reflect on my goals, desires & how I'm going about them.
God is never done working on us or through us, and as long as I remain yielded I know He can and will use me, I was just hoping some things would happen a little quicker then they are. In thinking on that there is no time like the appointed time... so no point in rushing things but I think I'm excited to see what God has in store. Last year was a year of revelation into my gifting.... God revealed a lot of the anointing on my life, He revealed how I would be used and it's overwhelming yet exciting to consider. After all that excitement the early part of this year is a little anti climactic... in more ways then one.... *****cheeseburger grin for those who get it.
Any how I've missed those of you who enjoy the blog... I've missed writing. I hope folks will start participating more so I can see it's worth it.
What a woman wants for her birthday this year is just the continued love and support of her friends and family blood and extended through Christ.
It's been a while since I've posted and for good reason. I've been taking many moments to reflect and be quiet these days as I have felt the attack of the enemy from every direction in the last few weeks, several months actually but particularly the last few weeks. Yes in the area of sexual desires since that is what this blog is about mainly but in so many other areas as well.
As for my abstinence I have been struggling quite a bit... definitely a season of high desire. Not for any particular reason that I can see other then hormones...except that I also perceive an attack of the enemy on my mind. Yes I said it.... for those of you who understand that we wrestle not against flesh and blood but against spiritual principalities in high places (Ephesians 6:12) you know what I mean. I can tell when sexual thoughts come from ME versus the enemy. I have had quite a few men "hit me up".... wanting to entice me. A couple with the offer of "just oral sex" as I'm sure quite a few of you have gotten, you know that offer that most often leads to way more? I almost gave into one offer... considered it for far too long and actually responded with consideration???? WTH???? I had to shake it off. What was I thinking..... I know what I was thinking... I was thinking a nice orgasm would be great right about now. Boy it took a minute to shake that one off and I actually felt super guilty for even considering it. What kind of example would that be???
Since the purpose of this blog is to encourage people to abstain from sex or overcome sexual bondage it stands to reason I have an enemy who desires to take me out of play. Dramatic? Not really, it's a reality when you understand the spirit realm and not just the realm of the flesh. See folks will believe in all that psychic crap but won't believe in the Biblical truths about the spirit realm.
The other area of attack in my life has been on the health of myself and family members seemingly all at once. Last year in December I wound up in the hospital with symptoms of heart issues... I almost blew my top. Unfortunately what comes with the territory of diabetes is heart disease.... a wake up call for me to take better care of myself. Next My brother is diagnosed with thyroid cancer, my sister-in-law is in need of surgery and I again just this week wind up in the hospital again, this time faced with possible surgery for ovarian cysts that caused so much pain I couldn't walk. BUT GOD!!!! Oh and the morphine drip was amaZing! LOL
As my boy Broderick said..... they turned me into a junky.... now they tryin to send me to rehab & I said NO NO NO.... LOL
Anywho, those things on top of several deaths even multiple deaths in single families over the last few months in our church has just been a heavy burden spiritually. Your prayers are much appreciated.
I know there are others dealing with far more & I get the burden of intercession quite frequently... but that on top of my own stuff can just be heavy.
I was feeling a little down today because yet another birthday is upon me and it seems as though I am not where I had hoped to be or want to be in many areas of my life. There is never anyone to blame but self in these situations as I am in control of my life and choices... but none the less it has caused me to pause and reflect on my goals, desires & how I'm going about them.
God is never done working on us or through us, and as long as I remain yielded I know He can and will use me, I was just hoping some things would happen a little quicker then they are. In thinking on that there is no time like the appointed time... so no point in rushing things but I think I'm excited to see what God has in store. Last year was a year of revelation into my gifting.... God revealed a lot of the anointing on my life, He revealed how I would be used and it's overwhelming yet exciting to consider. After all that excitement the early part of this year is a little anti climactic... in more ways then one.... *****cheeseburger grin for those who get it.
Any how I've missed those of you who enjoy the blog... I've missed writing. I hope folks will start participating more so I can see it's worth it.
What a woman wants for her birthday this year is just the continued love and support of her friends and family blood and extended through Christ.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Why Im Not Married
After reading an article done by Tracy McMillan http://www.huffingtonpost.com/tracy-mcmillan/why-youre-not-married_b_822088.html?ref=fb&src=sp I thought I would share the reality of this for me. This article was not new news to me as a matter of fact I have said this many times to many people as it relates to the rising epidemic of unmarried women, especially black women. This article raised a lot of painful & partial truths.
Indeed the reality is that you can't change anyone else but yourself so it would be in our best interest to always look inward when there is a chronic issue in our lives instead of placing the blame on exterior issues.
I realized a while back that the reason I wasn't married was because of me. Not because I was this horrible person and didn't deserve love, but for a few reasons. The main reason being (and get this ladies) who I ALLOWED in my life. Often our choices of who we allow in our lives are guided by our insecurities, lack of self esteem and just plain lack of understanding. But we grow.
I have over the years grown tremendously in the area of discerning who is and isn't a person I should allow in my personal circle, whether romantic or non romantic. I still make a few bad choices on occasion because I love to help people and even in that I believe nothing is a mistake but an opportunity to learn.
As for me and why I'm not married the main reason now is because I know God is not done with me yet. He has and is doing a mighty work in me in many areas. What God showed me is that the man I asked HIM for would not have wanted me as I was. Meaning I had to meet the same standard that I required. Now that is a painful revelation to get... that you don't meet the standard you yourself are setting.
I had to take a look at my life, my behaviors in total, the inconsistency is what was the biggest issue. I didn't always walk the walk that I talked about..... that has changed.
In Tracy's article, I now find that I fall into category #1 which is the Bitch. Not full fledged but I know I have it in me. I tend to give men a really hard time and this is a result of past wounds that God is still working on. My over all lack of trust in men stems from the molestation I suffered as a child from the age of 4 to 18..... I don't think I realized just to what depth it has affected me. Even with all my therapy & healing, there is always more to be uncovered. How could anyone trust a man after that? But GOD!!!!!!
I am far from a victim and don't call myself a survivor either. I am an over comer.... but understanding the root is key in all of this.
The defensiveness, lack of trust, nonchalant attitude I have, often sends a message to men that I don't need them or want them.
Now theoretically I could be married 5 times over based on offers... (not bragging) but what good does an offer do that you know isn't the right one? I was married when I was 23 and it didn't last a year because I realized that I had made the wrong choice for the wrong reasons. I swore I would never do that again.
I have had 5 men in as many years say I was their wife and they wanted to marry me, however as God had spoken to them and told them I was their wife, apparently God forgot to send me that memo.
There is actually a man now who would marry me tomorrow if I would give in to his desire, however I know he is not for me. Some men are sent to destroy you by the enemy.... however the man that God sends will be sent to RESTORE you.
This mans offer to take care of me so that I will never have to work again may sound attractive, but believe me I know it will come with a price, especially when done outside of the will of God.
I have not met and married the man I will marry now because God is working on me & him. God is working on my ability to receive him, as I have a tendency to push away & God is working on his ability to SEE me. Since a treasure is not easily found because it is hidden... God is working on this mans ability to see the treasure in me because it runs deep not just on the surface.
A lot of us women are exhibiting some pretty masculine energy these days as well I think. We are so powerful, intelligent, independent and successful that we don't have the quiet nature, soft and loving that men actually look for and desire in a woman. We are bold, brass, harsh, mean, bitchy..... cuz we have to do it all and do it well.
I asked God to remove all that from me..... That my boldness would be for the Kingdom, but not to rise up against a man, that I would learn to season my words with grace and salt so as not to wound a man's ego and that I would learn Godly submission so that a man can feel he can execute his rightful position as head of household.
I also realize I'm not married because as a woman of God, for a long time my desire to be married superseded my desire to please God and execute my purpose. What I do believe is that often God will withhold those things that you put before Him. Sometimes He will let you have it to teach you a lesson, hence so many divorces... but He will also withhold.
So why aren't you married?
Indeed the reality is that you can't change anyone else but yourself so it would be in our best interest to always look inward when there is a chronic issue in our lives instead of placing the blame on exterior issues.
I realized a while back that the reason I wasn't married was because of me. Not because I was this horrible person and didn't deserve love, but for a few reasons. The main reason being (and get this ladies) who I ALLOWED in my life. Often our choices of who we allow in our lives are guided by our insecurities, lack of self esteem and just plain lack of understanding. But we grow.
I have over the years grown tremendously in the area of discerning who is and isn't a person I should allow in my personal circle, whether romantic or non romantic. I still make a few bad choices on occasion because I love to help people and even in that I believe nothing is a mistake but an opportunity to learn.
As for me and why I'm not married the main reason now is because I know God is not done with me yet. He has and is doing a mighty work in me in many areas. What God showed me is that the man I asked HIM for would not have wanted me as I was. Meaning I had to meet the same standard that I required. Now that is a painful revelation to get... that you don't meet the standard you yourself are setting.
I had to take a look at my life, my behaviors in total, the inconsistency is what was the biggest issue. I didn't always walk the walk that I talked about..... that has changed.
In Tracy's article, I now find that I fall into category #1 which is the Bitch. Not full fledged but I know I have it in me. I tend to give men a really hard time and this is a result of past wounds that God is still working on. My over all lack of trust in men stems from the molestation I suffered as a child from the age of 4 to 18..... I don't think I realized just to what depth it has affected me. Even with all my therapy & healing, there is always more to be uncovered. How could anyone trust a man after that? But GOD!!!!!!
I am far from a victim and don't call myself a survivor either. I am an over comer.... but understanding the root is key in all of this.
The defensiveness, lack of trust, nonchalant attitude I have, often sends a message to men that I don't need them or want them.
Now theoretically I could be married 5 times over based on offers... (not bragging) but what good does an offer do that you know isn't the right one? I was married when I was 23 and it didn't last a year because I realized that I had made the wrong choice for the wrong reasons. I swore I would never do that again.
I have had 5 men in as many years say I was their wife and they wanted to marry me, however as God had spoken to them and told them I was their wife, apparently God forgot to send me that memo.
There is actually a man now who would marry me tomorrow if I would give in to his desire, however I know he is not for me. Some men are sent to destroy you by the enemy.... however the man that God sends will be sent to RESTORE you.
This mans offer to take care of me so that I will never have to work again may sound attractive, but believe me I know it will come with a price, especially when done outside of the will of God.
I have not met and married the man I will marry now because God is working on me & him. God is working on my ability to receive him, as I have a tendency to push away & God is working on his ability to SEE me. Since a treasure is not easily found because it is hidden... God is working on this mans ability to see the treasure in me because it runs deep not just on the surface.
A lot of us women are exhibiting some pretty masculine energy these days as well I think. We are so powerful, intelligent, independent and successful that we don't have the quiet nature, soft and loving that men actually look for and desire in a woman. We are bold, brass, harsh, mean, bitchy..... cuz we have to do it all and do it well.
I asked God to remove all that from me..... That my boldness would be for the Kingdom, but not to rise up against a man, that I would learn to season my words with grace and salt so as not to wound a man's ego and that I would learn Godly submission so that a man can feel he can execute his rightful position as head of household.
I also realize I'm not married because as a woman of God, for a long time my desire to be married superseded my desire to please God and execute my purpose. What I do believe is that often God will withhold those things that you put before Him. Sometimes He will let you have it to teach you a lesson, hence so many divorces... but He will also withhold.
So why aren't you married?
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Christians Don't Date
I was asked a question recently about dating. The question was "what does the bible say about dating". My response to that was NOTHING. And it's true. There is no biblical reference to dating or anything like it. The key to ANY relationship is foundation however and the bible speaks on that plenty.
You see dating is for the world, Christians are supposed to court one another. I find it interesting that this is not more prominently spoken about in church so that we as Christian singles have a better chance at success when it comes to the issue of purity. We do better when we know better.
We as Christians are supposed to form COVENANTS. When a man & woman meet in Christ, they are "Brother" & "Sister"..... not incestuous of course, but meaning the relationship should be pure in intention & act until such a time as it's appropriate. We are to build a foundation of love and trust, sharpen one another and the relationship will either evolve into a covenant of marriage or dissolve because there was no compatibility. All this should take place prior to sexual contact. Basic displays of affection, such as hugging, kissing, holding hands etc.... are essential however to establish a romantic connection and a desire for intimacy but of course in moderation lest you get all hot and bothered and wanna jump into bed. Been there done that. I love kissing & have been known to set a man on fire a time or two in my life time. ***wink
What I find interesting is not to many Christians truly subscribe to this process, mind set or lifestyle. As a matter of fact it's considered to be rigid, stuffy, religious etc.....Heck I can say if you said this to me a few years ago, I would have looked at you crazy to. Why? Because it's so contrary to how we do things in the world.....
If I could meet a Christian man that understood this for real, and made a sincere effort in this manner I think I might pass out. I mean "Christian" men have said to me there is no way they would marry a woman they haven't had sex with. As a matter of fact, once a man realizes that I have shut down the cookie factory, he walks away so fast you would swear I farted on his best suit.
There are elements of dating in courtship, such as going out to dinners, movies, other activities.... but the basic concept of courtship is that the point is it will eventually lead to marriage. There is a serious PURPOSE to the dating and the element of casual sex is not supposed to be a part of courtship.
Hey, even Steve Harvey said in his book a woman should never have sex with a man until he has dated her for at least 90 days which would indicate that he is interested in more then just your goodies.
In 90 days of sincere courtship.... two people should be able to get to know each other in such a deep fashion that they can easily determine whether or not they could conceive of marriage. If those two people are healthy spiritually and emotionally and are transparent, with the right chemistry, it should be easy. If your not compatible, then you can walk away, no harm no foul, and no soul ties from premature sexual contact.
My question is how do you meet the ones who are sincere, healthy, and desirous of a relationship that will lead to marriage as apposed to the the ones who aren't. It seems to be a hit and miss here in good old LA. Even some I meet who say they are serious aren't so serious after all. Now this is not true of all of them... but as for someone I have that chemistry with, no success yet.
What do you think about Christians and dating?
You see dating is for the world, Christians are supposed to court one another. I find it interesting that this is not more prominently spoken about in church so that we as Christian singles have a better chance at success when it comes to the issue of purity. We do better when we know better.
We as Christians are supposed to form COVENANTS. When a man & woman meet in Christ, they are "Brother" & "Sister"..... not incestuous of course, but meaning the relationship should be pure in intention & act until such a time as it's appropriate. We are to build a foundation of love and trust, sharpen one another and the relationship will either evolve into a covenant of marriage or dissolve because there was no compatibility. All this should take place prior to sexual contact. Basic displays of affection, such as hugging, kissing, holding hands etc.... are essential however to establish a romantic connection and a desire for intimacy but of course in moderation lest you get all hot and bothered and wanna jump into bed. Been there done that. I love kissing & have been known to set a man on fire a time or two in my life time. ***wink
What I find interesting is not to many Christians truly subscribe to this process, mind set or lifestyle. As a matter of fact it's considered to be rigid, stuffy, religious etc.....Heck I can say if you said this to me a few years ago, I would have looked at you crazy to. Why? Because it's so contrary to how we do things in the world.....
If I could meet a Christian man that understood this for real, and made a sincere effort in this manner I think I might pass out. I mean "Christian" men have said to me there is no way they would marry a woman they haven't had sex with. As a matter of fact, once a man realizes that I have shut down the cookie factory, he walks away so fast you would swear I farted on his best suit.
There are elements of dating in courtship, such as going out to dinners, movies, other activities.... but the basic concept of courtship is that the point is it will eventually lead to marriage. There is a serious PURPOSE to the dating and the element of casual sex is not supposed to be a part of courtship.
Hey, even Steve Harvey said in his book a woman should never have sex with a man until he has dated her for at least 90 days which would indicate that he is interested in more then just your goodies.
In 90 days of sincere courtship.... two people should be able to get to know each other in such a deep fashion that they can easily determine whether or not they could conceive of marriage. If those two people are healthy spiritually and emotionally and are transparent, with the right chemistry, it should be easy. If your not compatible, then you can walk away, no harm no foul, and no soul ties from premature sexual contact.
My question is how do you meet the ones who are sincere, healthy, and desirous of a relationship that will lead to marriage as apposed to the the ones who aren't. It seems to be a hit and miss here in good old LA. Even some I meet who say they are serious aren't so serious after all. Now this is not true of all of them... but as for someone I have that chemistry with, no success yet.
What do you think about Christians and dating?
Friday, February 11, 2011
What do you do when you want to have sex?
I was sitting here and I thought I would share one of my more vulnerable moments. I am human and not superwoman with an icy libido. I am quite the horn dog to be honest. I have said it before I love the sausage as much as the next girl. I just made the decision to abstain for spiritual reasons which I feel truly benefits my emotional health. Long and short of it, I finally came to a point that I love God more & am no longer willing to compromise my worship.
Giving into the temptation of having sex may have given me a few moments of pleasure in the past but little else. I often found myself feeling even more alone then if I had just let the moment pass. Kind of like now, I really would love some love, affection, companionship and yes some great sex. But I want it all, not just in part.
So what do you do when you want the sausage? Well, LOL I came to blog. I shifted my focus. It's as easy as a phone call to have the company of a man, so I must be very careful and make an effort not to act impulsively off of my desires. See this is where we get in trouble. Instead of casting down that thought, intentionally squashing it, we often feed it, allow it to take hold, then next thing you know your taking the morning after pill. (extreme but real)
I posted today on my facebook page about being holy hoes....... you know folks who love the Lord but can't seem to keep our sex drives in check and under submission.
How and why does it get that out of control for us, so out of control that you can't seem to say no to sex? Why does our desire for companionship supersede our desire to please God? The world looks at us and doesn't see any difference in our behavior and that bothers me. Does it bother you? I never really thought about it as much as I do now...... because more and more I see the stronghold it has on the church body and how it hinders us. I see clearly because I'm clean and not in the sin..... the absence of the sin creates better visibility spiritually. I once was blind but now I see...
See now my moment has passed. I think I'll go watch my DVR recordings of Dr. Phil.
Smooches!!!
Giving into the temptation of having sex may have given me a few moments of pleasure in the past but little else. I often found myself feeling even more alone then if I had just let the moment pass. Kind of like now, I really would love some love, affection, companionship and yes some great sex. But I want it all, not just in part.
So what do you do when you want the sausage? Well, LOL I came to blog. I shifted my focus. It's as easy as a phone call to have the company of a man, so I must be very careful and make an effort not to act impulsively off of my desires. See this is where we get in trouble. Instead of casting down that thought, intentionally squashing it, we often feed it, allow it to take hold, then next thing you know your taking the morning after pill. (extreme but real)
I posted today on my facebook page about being holy hoes....... you know folks who love the Lord but can't seem to keep our sex drives in check and under submission.
How and why does it get that out of control for us, so out of control that you can't seem to say no to sex? Why does our desire for companionship supersede our desire to please God? The world looks at us and doesn't see any difference in our behavior and that bothers me. Does it bother you? I never really thought about it as much as I do now...... because more and more I see the stronghold it has on the church body and how it hinders us. I see clearly because I'm clean and not in the sin..... the absence of the sin creates better visibility spiritually. I once was blind but now I see...
See now my moment has passed. I think I'll go watch my DVR recordings of Dr. Phil.
Smooches!!!
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Letting Go When All The Signs Point To Exit
I was talking to a friend today and the subject came up about letting go of relationships. Whether romantic or just friendships, do you know how to let go? Do you pay attention to all the signs that point to the exit? Or do you hold on refusing to let go like a fat woman holding on to a snicker bar? I personally have a kung fu crip on my oatmeal raisin cookies ***** don't judge me.
I have found on many occasions I have refused to let go of relationships that needed to end, friendships & romantic ties. I have been one of those women with the savior complex, you know try to help everyone, never wanna give up on anyone. To a degree it's a great trait. I give a million and one chances. I mean God doesn't give up on u right?. However He will let us go....... He will release us in the wilderness of our disobedience, until such a time as we come to our senses. So sometimes we must also let others go into their wilderness & not allow them to drag us with them.
It is that million and one chance that can send you into a dark place, a lonely place, a depressed place, a dead place (just keeping it real). Yes your inability to let go when needed can indeed cost your life literally.
Ask yourself why you hold on, when all signs point to go. Ask yourself what the possible consequences can be if you hold on to the relationship.
I know for me it has cost me a lot of time..... time I could have spent doing more productive things then trying to convince someone to love me. Or time spent wanting the friendship to be more then what it was when you have made it clear I am not important to you as a friend.
Any relationship that does not add to your life in a positive way, is a relationship that needs to end. Any relationship that devalues you, or causes you to neglect yourself or others without good cause is a bad one. Any relationship that leaves you emotionally depleted no matter how much you work at it is not a good one.
Many relationships just run a course based on where we are in life, some are meant for a lifetime and some for a season, but there are some relationships we never should have gotten into to begin with. Some of us ignored the signs, passed go and collected $200 and are now living with our nightmare or suffered significant consequences as a result that damage our self esteem, hinder our spiritual growth and even caused us to abort God given dreams and purpose.
If this speaks to you in any way, don't be afraid to let go of the relationship that is holding you back. Head towards the exit. You will find, light, sunshine, fresh air await you for your obedience.
God always rewards obedience. ;*)
I have found on many occasions I have refused to let go of relationships that needed to end, friendships & romantic ties. I have been one of those women with the savior complex, you know try to help everyone, never wanna give up on anyone. To a degree it's a great trait. I give a million and one chances. I mean God doesn't give up on u right?. However He will let us go....... He will release us in the wilderness of our disobedience, until such a time as we come to our senses. So sometimes we must also let others go into their wilderness & not allow them to drag us with them.
It is that million and one chance that can send you into a dark place, a lonely place, a depressed place, a dead place (just keeping it real). Yes your inability to let go when needed can indeed cost your life literally.
Ask yourself why you hold on, when all signs point to go. Ask yourself what the possible consequences can be if you hold on to the relationship.
I know for me it has cost me a lot of time..... time I could have spent doing more productive things then trying to convince someone to love me. Or time spent wanting the friendship to be more then what it was when you have made it clear I am not important to you as a friend.
Any relationship that does not add to your life in a positive way, is a relationship that needs to end. Any relationship that devalues you, or causes you to neglect yourself or others without good cause is a bad one. Any relationship that leaves you emotionally depleted no matter how much you work at it is not a good one.
Many relationships just run a course based on where we are in life, some are meant for a lifetime and some for a season, but there are some relationships we never should have gotten into to begin with. Some of us ignored the signs, passed go and collected $200 and are now living with our nightmare or suffered significant consequences as a result that damage our self esteem, hinder our spiritual growth and even caused us to abort God given dreams and purpose.
If this speaks to you in any way, don't be afraid to let go of the relationship that is holding you back. Head towards the exit. You will find, light, sunshine, fresh air await you for your obedience.
God always rewards obedience. ;*)
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Do you want to make love or just have sex?
It's really quite amazing how God created us to connect with one another & how there truly is someone for everyone on many different levels.
There are different ways that we attract our mates, not just by physical (visual)attributes, but such things as your voice pattern can draw a person to you. I know this to be true.... as I have had many men that loved my voice. There is someone for everyone. I have even met men who I found visually attractive, but couldn't stand their voice pattern..... it just kind of made me cringe. Interesting isn't it? Did you know that everyone has a different voice pattern, like finger prints?..... So know that your father in heaven knows your voice when He hears you pray.
Moving on........ body language, eye contact and verbal communication is key to attraction that is long lasting.
Both men and women are big balls of hormones, but one reason that women connect to their partners more sexually is because we release more of a hormone called Oxytocin. This hormone is the bonding hormone, it's released during nursing and helps mommy bond to baby, and during sex when you have an orgasm. Men release it as well, and its released even with the touching of skin which is why raw unprotected sex drives us wild.
Ladies if you truly want a man to bond with you, there must be key elements in place for that to happen or he can and does possess the ability to hit it and quit it.
A man that does not ask you intimate questions or have a sincere desire to get to know you is not going to bond with you emotionally during sex. His brain must connect with you long before his sausage does. If your voice pattern does not attract him, which would lead him to want to hear you speak & body language do not mirror each other or he does not connect with you on an emotional level, the chemistry is superficial, purely lustful.
We often allow ourselves to engage in the superficial with the hopes that it will evolve into more, this is asking for trouble. Inevitably your doomed for failure.
Eye contact, body language, and intimate conversation are recipes for deep bonding. Remember the one you could talk to for hours, you wanted to spend all your time with? That's how it's supposed to be........ Ladies if he's not giving you all of him, then you shouldn't be giving him all of you. And the same goes for the guys. Guys if a woman isn't asking you lots of questions and I don't be drilling or third degree, just genuine interest about who you are... she is not that interested in you. Don't settle.
If people are avoiding phone conversations and only texting you, they are avoiding deep conversation and intimacy.......huge red flag. If there is not a mutual desire to spend time with each other, hang out do things, or it's all one sided..... have enough self esteem to move on.
Figuring out all these things takes some time, not a lot but enough which is why having sex prematurely or just because the SEXUAL chemistry is there is the worst thing you can do. After all is said and done, you then find out that the person is not even close to what you want in a mate and by then you have connected or bonded in a way that makes it difficult to let go. I've done this a couple of times...... have you?
Self control is very attractive to me in a man. If a man wants to take the time to get to know you, he's not going to even push for sex until he does, because a real man knows that making love is better then just screwing any day of the week. In other words if you wait to have sex instead of just jumping into bed with folks, you will learn there is a huge difference between having sex and making love. There is no comparing the two. Once you have enjoyed love, you don't want anything else. So don't settle, don't give in to the temptation of the flesh just for a momentary release.... hold out for the real deal.
Just my thoughts. What are yours?
There are different ways that we attract our mates, not just by physical (visual)attributes, but such things as your voice pattern can draw a person to you. I know this to be true.... as I have had many men that loved my voice. There is someone for everyone. I have even met men who I found visually attractive, but couldn't stand their voice pattern..... it just kind of made me cringe. Interesting isn't it? Did you know that everyone has a different voice pattern, like finger prints?..... So know that your father in heaven knows your voice when He hears you pray.
Moving on........ body language, eye contact and verbal communication is key to attraction that is long lasting.
Both men and women are big balls of hormones, but one reason that women connect to their partners more sexually is because we release more of a hormone called Oxytocin. This hormone is the bonding hormone, it's released during nursing and helps mommy bond to baby, and during sex when you have an orgasm. Men release it as well, and its released even with the touching of skin which is why raw unprotected sex drives us wild.
Ladies if you truly want a man to bond with you, there must be key elements in place for that to happen or he can and does possess the ability to hit it and quit it.
A man that does not ask you intimate questions or have a sincere desire to get to know you is not going to bond with you emotionally during sex. His brain must connect with you long before his sausage does. If your voice pattern does not attract him, which would lead him to want to hear you speak & body language do not mirror each other or he does not connect with you on an emotional level, the chemistry is superficial, purely lustful.
We often allow ourselves to engage in the superficial with the hopes that it will evolve into more, this is asking for trouble. Inevitably your doomed for failure.
Eye contact, body language, and intimate conversation are recipes for deep bonding. Remember the one you could talk to for hours, you wanted to spend all your time with? That's how it's supposed to be........ Ladies if he's not giving you all of him, then you shouldn't be giving him all of you. And the same goes for the guys. Guys if a woman isn't asking you lots of questions and I don't be drilling or third degree, just genuine interest about who you are... she is not that interested in you. Don't settle.
If people are avoiding phone conversations and only texting you, they are avoiding deep conversation and intimacy.......huge red flag. If there is not a mutual desire to spend time with each other, hang out do things, or it's all one sided..... have enough self esteem to move on.
Figuring out all these things takes some time, not a lot but enough which is why having sex prematurely or just because the SEXUAL chemistry is there is the worst thing you can do. After all is said and done, you then find out that the person is not even close to what you want in a mate and by then you have connected or bonded in a way that makes it difficult to let go. I've done this a couple of times...... have you?
Self control is very attractive to me in a man. If a man wants to take the time to get to know you, he's not going to even push for sex until he does, because a real man knows that making love is better then just screwing any day of the week. In other words if you wait to have sex instead of just jumping into bed with folks, you will learn there is a huge difference between having sex and making love. There is no comparing the two. Once you have enjoyed love, you don't want anything else. So don't settle, don't give in to the temptation of the flesh just for a momentary release.... hold out for the real deal.
Just my thoughts. What are yours?
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
The Real Test
I was just considering that for now I've been doing so well because I haven't really met anyone that truly tempted me to any degree I couldn't resist. I have not met anyone with the schmeckle de resistance (say this with French Accent) I am super hormonal right now and would love a good shag, but still it's not that serious because I don't have anyone I'm particularly tempted by to that degree, nope not even with offers from sexy chocolatay men who wanna, well you know & send me pictures. It's enough to get a girl a little hot and bothered so I asked my BFF if humping a hydrant would be considered FORNTICATION......... she said only if you managed to get off on said hydrant. ;*) touche!
The true test will come when I meet someone who I fall madly in love with. That hasn't happened yet and to be honest I can't wait for it to happen. When I start dating someone special then this blog will get really interesting.
What I have learned about sin & ones will however is that we can do as we will and desire to do, since I DESIRE to abstain it has become easier & easier. Sin actually requires effort you know. It doesn't just happen. You actually consider it and have a moment to resist. The moment you don't resist you then relinquish your will to that thing WILLINGLY.
As a matter of fact the most heinous of sins i.e. murder, adultry, etc.... require the most planning.
I have myself & known others (yes Christians) to go to great lengths to perpetrate some pretty avoidable sins.
I mean if you make the reservation at the hotel, you have gone above and beyond to ensure your going to make it happen right?
Why do we plan to fail instead of plan to succeed? The more effort you put into resistance the more results you will see in that area. The more effort you put into sin, you then will see the fruit of your labor. What ever you feed will grow & what ever you starve will die. I said this long ago on my facebook blog & Tyler Perry stole it!!! He said it on Oprah a few weeks ago.... LOL
Peace, Love, Joy, Blessings.
The true test will come when I meet someone who I fall madly in love with. That hasn't happened yet and to be honest I can't wait for it to happen. When I start dating someone special then this blog will get really interesting.
What I have learned about sin & ones will however is that we can do as we will and desire to do, since I DESIRE to abstain it has become easier & easier. Sin actually requires effort you know. It doesn't just happen. You actually consider it and have a moment to resist. The moment you don't resist you then relinquish your will to that thing WILLINGLY.
As a matter of fact the most heinous of sins i.e. murder, adultry, etc.... require the most planning.
I have myself & known others (yes Christians) to go to great lengths to perpetrate some pretty avoidable sins.
I mean if you make the reservation at the hotel, you have gone above and beyond to ensure your going to make it happen right?
Why do we plan to fail instead of plan to succeed? The more effort you put into resistance the more results you will see in that area. The more effort you put into sin, you then will see the fruit of your labor. What ever you feed will grow & what ever you starve will die. I said this long ago on my facebook blog & Tyler Perry stole it!!! He said it on Oprah a few weeks ago.... LOL
Peace, Love, Joy, Blessings.
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