Momories

I must extend my apologies for not having been here for a while and I'm sorry for being selfish.  Last year was quite a year and I got married.  Seemingly the end to this journey but in fact just another layer to what God would have me do.  Although I am now no longer single, it does not hinder my understanding and ability to relate to those who are.... because of course I WAS THERE for a very long time. 

I can still remember those days... for it was not that long ago that I struggled in my flesh and in my mind and my heart.  IN FACT, I struggled up to the very day I said I DO... and you will too.

I struggled with being IN the relationship and operating in the relationship with the integrity and character I had so worked for and desired... I struggled with my flesh and being close to a man that I now wanted to love and marry, I remember struggling with longing up to the very day I said I do and it's quite normal.  When you know what it feels like to be hugged, touched, kissed and long for that type of affection and interaction you WILL struggle with maintaining your distance. 

It is only remembering that the battle is not ours but the Lords that will help you endure. 

For me what helped was knowing that for once the relationship was right, well intended, and was leading to marriage rather then just another dead end.... I was so filled with love and joy and peace and reverence for God and what He had done for me that I didn't want to mess it up.

I had come to far to turn back or do things the wrong way. 

You all have come so far, even if not perfect and having made a few mistakes along the way to turn around and go back to what you know will only hinder you, block you, hurt you.

Be willing to wait for what God has for you, it's well worth it.

with all my love I share because I care! 

xoxox

Don't be blinded

Ladies keep your cookie in the cookie jar and men keep your sausage to yourself until your married. Why you ask? Because that's the way God wants it. Doesn't sound fair, may not be easy, but God knows better then we know. The soulties you have developed as a result of your inability to control your flesh cause damage your hardly aware of. Every person you lay with, will increase your inability to TRULY connect to the person you are INTENDED to be with. It HINDERS your ability to even see that person. You can't recognize what is intended for you when you are blinded by temporary distractions.