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Friday, April 22, 2011

Playing with Fire

You know the saying "if you play with fire you will eventually get burned"?  Couldn't be truer.  Are you playing with fire in your attempt to abstain from sex?  I know I have... and recently.   I don't beat myself up about it, but I certainly kick myself after thanking God for my narrow escape on many occasions.  The most recent occasion being when I allowed an ex boyfriend to come over my house "to visit"... (we remained friendly after our break up)   It's funny how we remain naive to others intentions... I didn't think for a moment he came to "get some", I thought he came to say hello, talk a little, hang out etc.....   no biggie.  Then it happened, the conversation turned to old times... how he missed me, how I might have been the one that got away because he was too immature to see my value. then the hug goodbye....  You know that one?  The one that brings back memories, fond ones, chemistry, old feelings, the ones you think are long gone (for me they really are).  But I guess when you have been deprived of affection, contact, romance you get that feeling rising up in you, your body temperature rises, the temptation increases and you in that moment have a choice to make, will you give in or will you resist.

He tried to kiss me... then I knew it was gonna be trouble... Kisses for me are never just kisses, unless I give you one on the cheek.   He made his attempt and I felt like Holyfield in a boxing match.... I bobbed and weaved trying to duck it....   He got the message.

I was tempted... wanted to kiss him to be honest, but not because I love him.... I love to kiss and it's something I miss.  I briefly thought I might do it, thinking of course it can be just a kiss... a little make out session, but I knew HIM and I know ME.  So in that brief moment, I made the choice to avoid the potential danger.

It's certainly not always easy, but it is what we should do.  If we take those brief moments to think and reject the temptation, we can avoid some sticky situations that we often regret.

So if you don't wanna get burned, it's best you don't play with fire.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Sex Isn't Everything

Over time as I submitted more to Christ and not my flesh,  I began to ask myself why is sex such a big deal to everyone including me.  I mean I know it feels good, but why must it control us?  Sex is everywhere we go, on the radio, tv, movies, and no one can seem to see the scheme of the enemy in all this.

Funny my Pastor even said today that most people don't come to Christ or ever truly walk out their purpose because of sex.

This caused me to reflect on how much time I have wasted and how true that statement was.  I spent a great many years battling my flesh, mind and the desire for sexual gratification as a single.... of course what I really wanted was marriage so I wouldn't be in sin, however I was willing to compromise and give into the temptation for the companionship and momentary gratification.   All to the detriment of self, perpetuation of damage to self, self esteem & self worth

In all things we have a choice and I made the choice to satisfy my desire and not fulfill my purpose.  I had to take a moment to ask God to forgive me for all the men I put before my purpose.

What I can say that this walk of abstinence has done for me, is given me vision, clear without obstruction.  My thoughts are clear I have better focus and direction, a bigger sense of purpose, a stronger desire to fullfill it and a stronger presence of the Holy Spirit within because my temple is clean, cuz keep in mind no one wants to live in a dirty house.  1 Cor 6:18 speaks of the sin of sex outside of marriage being different then any other sin because it is done to self, your own body.  God in His infinite wisdom and knowledge knows how much damage sex with multiple partners can cause, mentally, emotionally, physically, even unto death..... or even unto generations to come... (children out of wedlock) damage damage damage, diseases.... damage damage damage...... Thing is the devil knows to....

We have the ability to set the standard, exhibit self control and live our lives whole and happy, sex should just be the icing on the cake, not the whole cake.  So today I encourage you to make the right choices, and do just that, be happy and whole and the rest will follow.

I was just thinking is all.